Innocent in the City
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Don't know any life but the city life, the glitz, the action, the frenzy.
Dreams of a quiet life but longs for more action.
Never contented with being in one place, always looking for something bigger and better.
That's me. The city girl.

 

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  • September 2004
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  • December 2004
  • January 2005
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  • February 2007
  • March 2007
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  • January 2008
  • March 2009

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    Friday, December 31, 2004
    happy new year everybody!
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    i know this wan't the best of years. heck, it couldn't be farther from a good year but it's over now and we're facing a brand spankin' new year.

    a new year to make mistakes and correct them, a new year to learn and un-learn, a new year to laugh and to cry. no matter if tears outrun the smiles, don't ever be afraid to try to smile. because smiles are contagious and smiles keep us going.

    a prosperous and hassle-free new year for all of us guys!

    CITY LIFE; 9:00 PM

    Friday, December 24, 2004
    scrooge-ing this christmas eve
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    bah hambug!
    there's nothing i hate more than pretending to be all happy and merry this blessed time of the year. its not that we're unhappy, it's just that we're not exactly having the best christmas and we certainly don't need THEM to rub it in our faces. "THEM" being my least favorite relatives...which is ironic since they're our remaining relatives here in the country. on any other occassion, i would've loved a visit from them but not this christmas. i can't bear to be the wide-smiled hostess and assure them that in spite of the major changes in our lives (trust me, its not for the better), we're okay. in fact, i'm having trouble convincing MYSELF that we'll be fine.

    i'm being a bit harsh on them. i don't hate them. i actually like their company and it's fun whenever they're around. i just don't understand why we have to PROVE that we're good (especially when we're on the brink of being bad...haha).

    i don't mind the early "call-time" to start our long, tedious attempt at making our tiny house look festive and bright. i don't mind working my ass off to scrub every inch of this damned apartment (pardon my language). i don't even mind smiling widely when they finally barge in our doors, with their maids and huge christmas gifts. what i'm wary about is the fact that i have to appear confident. i'm a good actress but sometimes, i crack under the piercing glare of everybidy. its as if they're waiting for me to break down and confess that i'm having a hard time (i might just do that).

    by far, this is the loneliest christmas of my life. of course, i haven't told anyone this (i probably shouldn't have mentioned this here...). selling our house was really heartbreaking and moving in this tiny apartment is worse... words aren't exchanged regarding our, uh, situation but i know that its bad. i knew it since the day i was given just enough money to commute to and from school.

    i'm not going to lament here because its christmas. i'll keep it in for another few days and by then, i would be too embarrassed to tell you more.

    i have my little gratitude list, though. i am grateful that my family is still intact. i am grateful that every one of us is healthy and that everyone is emotionally okay. i still love christmas...just not this christmas eve...=D (and my hair doesn't do me any good, either)

    i assure you that i'll be bright and cheery and christmas-y tomorrow...

    CITY LIFE; 10:11 AM

    Monday, December 20, 2004

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    This is for LEN...



    I kinda don't like my hair...i don't find it hideous but i don't like it all that much..
    CITY LIFE; 6:31 PM

    Sunday, December 19, 2004
    Merry Christmas!!!
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    I still haven't gotten over my "writer's slump" but I'm optimistic about the whole situation adn I know that it would pass soon enough...I'm raving about Christmas! I feel so christmas-y because of all the decorations, and of course, the christmas carols. I think that the songs are the best things about the season (except the food of course). I feel as though I'll gain a WHOLE lot of weight during our 2 week vacation. As if I needed MORE weight, right? haha!
    I got my hair cut earlier. I was with Pao, my bestfriend and as usual, he told the stylist what HE wanted for MY hair...weird no? SO anyways, it's really short (my hair) and it's not that i don't like it...its just that I kinda wanted it longer...it honestly makes my face looks 10x bigger...as if I needed an even bigger face?! But it'll grow back soon enough and when it does, I'm sticking to my word and i'll never ask Pao to go with me to the parlor again...even if it means paying off the salon by myself....=D
    CITY LIFE; 1:11 PM

    Saturday, December 04, 2004
    ...and i thought i could write
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    i used to be able to express myself freely and easily through writing. i used to be a great writer. i used to be admired because of my command of the language. i honestly thought i was born to write but now, i'm thinking i just fooled myself and everybody else into thinking that.

    i can't write!

    i come up with ideas, good ideas at that but when i start to write them down on paper, they seem to turn into garbage. i've finished but one composition in a month. and to think i won best essay in a competition.
    the one thing i used to rely on is the thing that's failing me now. maybe its just a phase, a block of some sort but maybe, its permanent. or maybe it just wasn't there.

    i used to have a couple compositions in a week time. i used to be able to breathe out my emotions on paper. i used to think i was special...guess i'm not.

    CITY LIFE; 9:49 AM

    Thursday, December 02, 2004
    no classes...chilly weather...and a cup of hot chocolate
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    there's a storm brewing and all are inside their homes, wearing jackets and watching tv. classes have been suspended and my sister is sooo happy that she refused to go back to sleep, opting to make most of her impromptu free time by watching cartoons at 6:00 a.m. and my brother is probably on the way back to manila, his retreat cut short because of the storm.

    it might be a joyous occasion for most of us, having classes suspended and having the chance to lay around and be idle but the moment you turn on the news, you see the other side of the coin. it's really sad that there are a lot of families who doesn't have their houses anymore because of the strong winds and rain, its awful to think that they're in some evacuation area, with no extra clothes, the children shivering and hungry...

    makes me thankful that i am safe here in our apartment, cramped as it may be, with my family. although i often complain and rant about the things i don't have, i still am grateful for what i DO have.

    so there.
    while sipping my hot chocolate and thinking of the storm, i say a quiet prayer thanking the heavens for everything i have...

    CITY LIFE; 11:46 AM